I am accepting the fact that I am no longer needed at the Hospital and that I can no longer contribute anything to the department.
I am upset in the way I was cast out like old newspapers. I was told, It's just business! Loyalty, dedication, caring, sleepless nights, on call 24 hrs/day, going in when called, all meant nothing because it's just business. Where's my Gold Watch? My retirement party? My hugs and tears from fellow employees? The hand shakes and We will miss you sentiments? I was robbed of all this because, It's just Business.
I think those 2 brothers (Ego & Vanity) need to be sent on a long journey so that Happiness and Thankfulness can come to live with me. I ( and those around me) thought I was on my way to a Corinary with the pressures of the job so this early retirement is really in my best interest, but it still is hard to take.
Each day. I heal a little more and accept it a little more and realize that family is whats important. To all of you that are concerned about us- WE ARE FINE. and we are survivors. I Think I will take Ayla out for lunch today. I have the time.
2 comments:
Not needed? Ha, that is just the ignorance of the just business people, quality has been downgraded as fast as food has been supersized.
Even though it was abrupt, you'll be forever thankful for those months of life you were released early from the slavery.
I know it takes a tremendous adjustment when one spends their entire life focused on getting to work...but once you reorient and divert your energy to health and happiness and hobbies and quit feeling guilty about not going into work...I believe you are entering a fantastic new chapter in life.
Reminds me of the song "sold my soul to the company store" and what do you get? Another day older and deeper in debt. If thats how they want to run their "business" I'm thankful you are out of there, they don't deserve you.
Well written post, wish it could be framed and hung on their wall for all potential future employees to read.
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