After the shock of the last Blog- I am now coming to terms with the rest of my life.


I am accepting the fact that I am no longer needed at the Hospital and that I can no longer contribute anything to the department.
I am upset in the way I was cast out like old newspapers. I was told, It's just business! Loyalty, dedication, caring, sleepless nights, on call 24 hrs/day, going in when called, all meant nothing because it's just business. Where's my Gold Watch? My retirement party? My hugs and tears from fellow employees? The hand shakes and We will miss you sentiments? I was robbed of all this because, It's just Business.
I think those 2 brothers (Ego & Vanity) need to be sent on a long journey so that Happiness and Thankfulness can come to live with me. I ( and those around me) thought I was on my way to a Corinary with the pressures of the job so this early retirement is really in my best interest, but it still is hard to take.
Each day. I heal a little more and accept it a little more and realize that family is whats important. To all of you that are concerned about us- WE ARE FINE. and we are survivors. I Think I will take Ayla out for lunch today. I have the time.

Today Is The 2nd Day OF The Rest Of My Life. The 1st Day Really Sucked. Yesterday, I was called into Human Resources for a meeting I thought to discuss a disciplinary matter with one of my employees. My V.P. and Director were there as well as the HR director. I am used to meetings so no flags went up. After small Chit Chat, the VP told me my position was being cut and that my services were no longer needed at Valley View Regional Hospital. S H O C K, DISMAY, HUH, WHAT DID I JUST HEAR, YOU SERIOUS, WHEN??? !!!! WE will offer you a lower position in the dept as a Tech at 1/2 the pay or you can take the SEVERANCE PACKAGE!!! They told me to take my time and notify them by Friday as to my decision. I have chosen the PACKAGE and my last official day is -- (get this) 9-11..
Yep, Sept 11th. isn't that fitting . Yesterday really SUCKED.

Ayla and I have decided to make the best of the situation and enjoy our time together. I was wanting to retire on my terms next May, but the time has been pushed up a little. As soon as the Ego turns loose and the shock wears off, I will do well. Boy, Yesterday sure did SUCK.

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